I don’t believe that reality had truly hit me yet that I have Stage 4 cancer. When Dr. Bentz had explained the pathology to me I must have had that deer in the headlights mentality in my head and was just stunned and didn’t think to press him for more questions. I had more time to think and contemplate on what Dr. Bentz had explained. Now, I started thinking to myself how in the world am I going to survive a Stage 4 cancer? Everything I have ever heard about an advanced stage of cancer was not good, but the reality right now is that I have to remember to just take a deep breath and take this one step at a time and not worry myself with the what if scenarios just yet.